Rediscovering my insanity

I went against all my demons believing I was invincible when alone I saw those demons rising as the Devil and I had my invincibility no more I fell to my knees as I met my fear Such a fear my throat was stuck Such a fear my eyes wouldn't blink Such a fear that I gave up. Nearly! But then a scream rang out loud and clear I saw it turn and run. Run like a man possessed Confused, Relieved, Alive I looked back And I saw an army that scared the Devil itself Some had clenched fist, some were brandishing swords Some were just holding placards, on them the right words I know I am invincible now for I have these fools as my friends And I know I was a fool then for believing I could ever be alone

Hey Beautiful! How is it going? I got the feeling that you were losing your belief in me. So here am I. Whaaat? Who am I? Silly, I know I am the one you keep thinking about. I am the one who keeps thinking about you. I am THE ONE! For you. Have me met? I am not sure. And I don't even know when we will meet. But meet WE WILL. After all the Universe is playing our cupid. Yes! It is taking its own time. But that is because we are its favourite. And it wants our love to be perfect. It wants us to be perfect. Till then we have our own journeys to live. So go and meet people. Have some heartbreaks. Feel the hurt. But do not think you are flawed. You are wonderful. And even if you do not feel it yet, you are getting better. With every single experience. The longing, the pain, the joy. All of this is turning you into someone perfect. Perfect for Me. So do not quit on me. Remember I am on my way. And I am not quitting. To tell you the truth, I am under the same pressure as well...

There were 1842 fatalities in 2001 in Delhi due to road accidents. Just like any other kid in school this figure would have disturbed me had it not been for the bell that rang on 17 th December. We were not expecting anyone as dad was supposed to be at some computer course. So when three ladies from our society told us that there had been an accident just outside the gate in which someone had been injured and taken to hospital, I came along with them to identify scooter but did not believe the injured one would be my dad. When I saw the familiar helmet lying in the middle of the road I still controlled myself thinking it would be a minor accident. When I saw him, Papa’s head was covered in bandages. He was in a drowsy state due to medicines and his left eye was not opening. I asked the doctor if his eye would be fine but he did not know. He referred him to R&R hospital and we went along where I saw a paramedic slapping my dad to keep him awake. My dad was not feeling the pain...

1. The Jacket It is a beautiful night and they are walking on a lonely stretch. Suddenly a chilly wind breezes past them. She shivers and hugs herself. He sees this and starts taking off his jacket. She frowns and shakes her head. He is confused. She points a finger at him and then points her palms upwards gesturing What about you. His eyes twinkle as he takes out his left arm from the jacket and offers the empty arm. She smiles and puts it on. Snuggling into the jacket, her right hand finds his left and presses it gently. They both look at each other wondering how they found each other. 2. The Car They have been driving for quite some time without knowing where they are heading. He catches her staring at him. He looks at her and his eyebrow jumps up in a gesture saying What. Her reverie is broken and a beautiful smile forms on her lips that finds its way into her eyes. She shakes her head and closes her eyes. The smile now has jumped into his eyes as well. He loves being in her t...

I am a pretty simple book to read. Everyone knows me and can predict what I will order to eat and which movie I will not accept to watch. So it will come as a sort of shock when I say that noone including myself knows me. The anomaly here is that I have 2 life modes. The first one is the automatic mode where I do and say what I am supposed to. This is not me being fake but it is simply my muscle memory taking over. This mode is on when I do not feel safe enough to remove my shields, which is to say all the time. The other mode is the one where I allow my emotions a vent. This makes me moody and introspective. This mode switches on very occasionally and depends on the support group around me. I remember going through most of my college life in the 1st mode. However by the end of it, I had made some amazing friends with whom I felt safe enough to discuss even my incoherent thoughts. And they knew me well enough to support and even share my eccentricities. Obviously not all friends a...

Whenever you make a new friend or find a new path or accomplish some life goal you feel really good about yourself. There is an overpowering and overwhelming sensation inside. And you know the reason sometimes. At other times that reason is not so forthcoming. And you need to know the reason to replicate this feeling. So you try sharing this feeling with someone to understand it. Many a times, along the way the timeline gets distorted and the someone becomes the reason you for that feeling. Voila! You are in love. Or atleast you think you are. Once you feel you are in love, you find signs in things that were commonplace  earlier forgetting that the person likes to give special attention to his/her friends or, if that person has a heart of gold, even to strangers. My friend, this is you being blind sighted. You keep piling on your emotions based on non-existing hints and start taking out loans to build your very own fantasy world. You know your special someone might be in love wit...

Yes! I am a silent person. That does not mean I hate conversations. Infact I love the real ones but I am afraid of starting those. And this is not without a reason. I have tried many times only to learn that people are in a hurry to get to a destination and the conversation to them is just an activity to while away their time. And I am not looking for those chit chats. If I start a conversation with you, know that I am opening my heart to you. And it is not a party with loud music. It is a long walk in the forest contemplating topics like life, space, love and time. The forest is safe(after all I created it), the time is aplenty(there is no destination) and the sounds are mesmerising(background score by Nature). Once you are here and comfortable tell me what you are thinking with passion and I promise to give you my full attention and listen. And I will try my best to understand. When I speak, you may listen as well or not. And in between, lets listen to the beautiful silence. Do no...

For most of our lives, we wear masks. Fearing the person beneath the mask. Not wanting to show our real faces. Not knowing if someone can accept us without it. Not knowing whether even we can accept ourselves without masks These masks are sometimes our pretentious clothes, sometimes our university degrees, sometimes even our hobbies. We play sports because we like emulating the sportsmen. We identify with music sometimes coz its simply not so simple. We connect with people who like our masks and we like theirs. But sometimes there comes a moment when that mask cracks a bit from someone’s face. Everyone around that broken mask feel something changing. Something that is not part of our world. And hence we take it upon ourselves to rebuild that mask or if that does not happen, we show the broken person the various other masks that suit him. And then sometimes we feel our masks cracking. We start feeling a void inside. We start falling down. The air attacking our face is so violent that ...

Don't we all love our Sachins, Messis and Schumachers. We all love celebrating their triumphs and records. Ask an Indian and he would tell you that a Sachin's century gave more joy to him than an Indian win. So does this mean that an individual brilliance is bigger than a team's triumph? Well! Ask this question to the man himself and he would tell you how he felt during the Chennai's heartbreaking innings. Yeah right. Heartbreak!! Any man might enjoy his praises but satisfaction and happiness comes only when he wins. And he wins when his team succeeds. FULL STOP. So how do you define success? Success, I believe is not a point, not a destination. Its the whole journey. And who likes to travel alone? Well some do but its an altogether a different and enriching experience when you have your best mates with you. And those are your best mates not because they are the strongest individuals but because they have been with you experiencing everything you have felt- yo...

ON THIS EARTH WHY I? These words made me sigh For I did always wonder If I was a boon or a blunder What's the purpose of this life To settle down with a lovely wife Or get those high profile jobs Or meet those worth-for-nothing snobs Or make a dreamhouse at a lovely place Or go on that wild goose chase Or buy that splendid sporty beast But truly these things interest me the least So why do something you don't like And let your inner self go on a strike Why live a life which has no use This is a question over which we need to muse So let's do some serious thinking Aha! I can see your mind blinking If you have a dream, go for it Thinking about others, don't hesitate a bit. It's your dream. So, you have to achieve You can do it only if you believe The first step, you'll have to take I know it won't be a piece of cake Alone, you may start to feel hollow But have belief and others would follow This i...

Finally found poems from pre college era ;) Here's the 1st one: SMILE If everything was to be lost If nothing could be saved at any cost If nothing was going to last If everything was to become past And I was given a choice To keep what I would forever rejoice I would ask for a SMILE Even if it was only for a while For nothing could be as pure For nothing could be as sure For it’s the humanity’s soul For it can capture emotions all Alas! Today smile is seen as a pang A group of smilers is seen as a criminal gang If the smilers are of opposite gender Smile is seen as an invitation by sender If a weak smiles in front of strong It is considered as something hugely wrong If the strong returns the smile back It’s considered that self respect he does lack Children are thought to be thinking evil And smile is seen as an assurance “we will” Smile is thought of as a tool for the weak Or as a sign of someone planning something freak. ...

When its time to go Yes! Its time to go.  You thank the people behind You say whats on your mind Thats what you gotta do Its time to say whats true When its time to go Yes! Its time to go. You did things you didnt like That time you didnt have the mike Now its time to come out of cave Its the time to be brave When its time to go Yes! its time to go You did what you thought was right Even if you had to fight Its time to think out loud Its the time to be proud When its time to go Yes! its time to go There wont be anyone like you That everyone knows too But they can take the lessons learnt Help them avoid the bridges brunt When its time to go Yes! its time to go       Tears will escape the eyes Its hard to say goodbyes But you gotta do it with a smile Oh yes you can take a while When its time to go Yes! its time to go Yes the life will be new Not the one in which you g...

No I am not an insensitive person. But its funny! People all around me were participating in some march or the other but I dint feel like joining any coz I thought it was funny. Its funny how people are signing and spreading some online petition for death penalty. Its funny how people are holding candle light march. Its funny how people are changing their profile pics. Its funny how some women are putting status villifying each and every man for all men want to rape even if they dont try to. Its funny how men are expressing disgust and anger in their discussions. Its funny coz people just found something to take their anger and frustration out on something. Yeah its funny! Its funny coz I know where this is going to end up in a week. And I dont find that funny. There was a time when I would be the 1st one to encourage candle light march. I was there last year in Anna's protest. And what did it come to? But then same things created some change in Middle East. So why not here? You...

Why would you drown when you can swim that extra mile Why would you frown when you can smile that lovely smile Why should you quit when you can still put up a fight Why should you give up when you know you are right Even if you think everything is going all wrong It just means you 've to be a bit more strong Maybe the success is waiting for you at your doorstep It just needs you to take one more final step And if you think you can't do this on your own You need to realize I'll never leave you alone If you cant find me anywhere near That is because I've no fear It is because I've so much faith in you I know you can handle it all without my help too And if you need some help you know whom to call I promise you that I'll be there to break your fall

I feel at peace when I'm confused. I feel accepted when I'm refused. I feel a joy when I'm rejected. I feel so happy when I'm dejected. Whenever I find ways to win I try finding other ways to lose. Whenever I find the right path I try finding other paths to choose. My character is simple yet so complex to decode. My voice is so clear yet so difficult to record. I like to do things that one should really fear. I'm a person of logic though my reasons seem so unclear. I play game as its life and live life as its a game For me there is no difference To me they are one and the same. I sometimes hate the joy and love most the pain. It may be hard to believe but I'm pretty sane. Whether you like it or not please let me just be Don't ask me to change Let it be the real me.

I've waited for none, always walked alone. To whom I'm known, say my heart's a stone. But something's changed, and the change is in me. You've become someone, without whom I just can't be. You are so far, yet feel so near. Don't want to cry, But can't stop that tear. Want to reach out, and be so close. That nose meets nose, and toes touch toes. Holding your hands, closing my eyes. I'm walking with you, fearing goodbyes. Time has come, for you to leave. Its just so hard, I refuse to believe. Can't we leave the world, and become a team? Create our own heaven, and live our own dream. You accept my love, and be partner for life. I'll be forever yours, will you be my wife? I give you the time, I give you the choice. To break my heart, or fill it with joys. Nothing else to hear, nothing else to tell. Till you make your choice, I wait in this hell...

A pair of eyes, looking so free. Giving a smile, looking at me. 've not seen them before, strangers they are. Looking so beautiful, each twinkling like star. In broad daylight, scene seems so true. Want to befriend them, not knowing what to do. Magic's rising, am losing control. Cant stop my eyes, let them go on a stroll. A pair of eyes, looking so free. Giving a smile, looking at me. Returning the favor, mine smile backs. An empty expression, friendship it packs. We say nothing, no words are spoken. Silence stays, its spell never broken. Still we converse, with blink of our eyes. No words said, so no truth, no lies. A pair of eyes, looking so free. Giving a smile, looking at me. Only a few feet distance, still seem so far away. Too mesmerized to move, just 've to stay. A short journey, breathing its last. Those eyes are going, its all becoming a past. Know may never meet them, forever they'll be gone. 'll keep loo...

This post has been published by me as a part of the Blog-a-Ton 30 ; the thirtieth edition of the online marathon of Bloggers; where we decide and we write. To be part of the next edition, visit and start following Blog-a-Ton . Everyday I go to a beach and find the sea so calm A sight so priceless and costs no more than an alm How can something be so moving and still be so picture still It has so many stories inside and still it finds a space to fill Its like the children playing here They relish each moment even when they run Infecting everyone with their hope and energy They look so serene even when they have fun I look away and see a man walking probably to find peace before the bed But his steps are brisk as if in hurry probably matching the thoughts in his head I want to share my most precious thing which I will give to you free Its my understanding of the life which took my life's quarters three Do your best in whatever you do But in the presen...

LIFE.... What's life? LIFE.... Life is LOVE! Love.... It can make you laugh, it can make you cry. Can make you want to live, Can make you want to die. It can warm your heart, nothing else gives joy such. It can break your heart, nothing else hurts so much. You can't run, neither can you hide. So don't fear love, let it win over your pride. LIFE.... What's life? LIFE.... Life is IMAGINATION! Imagination.... When you are thinking so hard, your eyes are gazing so deep. Or when they are closed, and you are fast asleep. Everyone may leave, Imagination never leaves you lone. It may be in form of your dreams, or as thoughts that just linger on. Let it expand, don't hold it tight. Imagination likes to fly, don't stop its flight. LIFE.... What's life? LIFE.... Life is FRIENDS! Friends.... Give you hope, and take your pain. Can't hide your tears from them, you may try in vain. Your loss is their loss, your win is thei...

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